Sometimes, It's Just Out Of Control

There's a river flowing in everyone's heart...

Control...we can if we want to control our own emotions, actions and pain...but, there's always one thing we can't really control...and it is LOVE...

Because meeting him/her was fated, becoming his/her friend was a choice, but falling in love with him/her was beyond our own control...

I never believe in love at first sight, because you won't love a person without trying to know him/her as a friend first...

Love his/her soul, but not love his/her body or face...because true love means love over lust...^^

Nonsense at Nine Zero Nine

Everything we do is dictated with a motive...(Dr. Greg House)

On the field

I skip and dance

Trying to pose and make a stance

In my purse

Fills my monthly allowance

I should do planning in finance

Among all the thorns

No eyes to eyes glances

Just fooling around and bromances

Among all the roses

Not much happening to me, romances

Only laughs and smiles for remembrance

On confession

A once in a lifetime chance

I'm seeking for: "Yes, I do", an acceptance...

Maybe...Forever Alone...

Forever alone? Are you kidding me? LOL...

4 hours to end...Just another normal, tiring Tuesday night...Without date, movie or romantic dinner...Munching raisins breads in my room...Blogging...And tonnes of unfinished homework waiting for me...No replies and no promises...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to my parents and all my dear friends...Truely appreciate my parents for giving birth to me and those who walk into my life and still remember me...

Valentine's Day

Roses and blood are red, and deep feelings won't just go dead...

Tomorrow is Tuesday, and also Valentine's Day...Ever think of how to celebrate with your loved one? Chocolate, roses, dinner or cinema? and end the day with a hug and a kiss? If your answer is NO...and you are showing me a FOREVER ALONE faces now...

Here, I have an edited lyric from Linkin Park to share with all my single friends out there, the night before Valentine. Don't be sad, just be yourself and be truthful, and always believe that there will always be a righteous person waiting for us...

The song is actually written when the singer's wife divorced with him and he's spending his Valentine's Day alone...

My insides all turn to ash

So Slow

And blow away as I collapsed

So cold

A black wind took you away

From sight

And now the darkness over day

That night

I used to be my own protection

But not now

Cause my path has lost direction

Somehow

And the clouds above move closer

Looking so dissatisfied

And the ground below grew colder

As they put you down inside

But the heartless wind kept blowing, stronger

So now you're gone

And I was wrong

I never knew what it was like

To be alone on a Valentine's Day...

Leave Out All The Rest

Life is like a boat...Just follow the flow of the river...

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What am I leaving?

When I'm done here?

So, if you're asking me

I want you to know:

When my time comes

Forget the wrong I've done

Help me leave behind

Some reasons to be missed

And don't resent me

When you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid

I've taken my beating

I've shared what I've made

I'm strong on the surface

But not all the way through

I've never been perfect

Till the day I've met you

Forgetting all the pain inside

You've learned to hide so well

Pretending someone can come

And save me from myself

But I can't be who you are...

*Edited from Linkin Park's song, Leave Out All The Rest

何谓绅士风度？

绅士也许只是一匹有耐性的大灰狼...

何谓绅士风度？虽说这并不是亚洲人的文化，但 男人彬彬有礼往往可以表现文明社会男士的道德风范，也可以看出一个男士的受教育程度与家教。犹记得，在N年前自己是一个性格内向、急性、脾气火爆的青少年。有时候，我会把朋友的开玩笑信以为真，结果每当知道真相后，就会大发雷霆。结果，中学时期，真正的朋友也只是寥寥无几，而且十之八九都是了解我脾性的。

我个人认为绅士风度并不是一朝一夕就能锻炼得出的。进入师范学院后，17位同班同学都是女生。不管脾性多火爆，我其实不曾在女生面前乱发脾气，在这三年里也锻炼出自己对人的容忍度。至于自己平时在日常生活中有多绅士风度，我自己自然心中有数。有一些讲师与朋友开玩笑说五年半毕业后， 我可能会变得有一些“娘”， 但我倒觉得毕业后，自己将会变得更了解女人的男人。

话说：“人无千日好，花无百日红”。在日常生活里，有时候也会与异性朋友产生误解或意见不合，但我总是保持冷静，不让情绪掌控自己的思维与理智。偶尔，在日常生活也会遇到一些蛮不讲理的女生，言语的杀伤力如雷公弹，可以把我“炸”到九霄云外去。有些人可能会认为我脾气好或心地善良，骂一骂我可以让自己的嘴巴过瘾（我知道马善被人骑，人善被人欺的意思；但我尽量不让自己变成脱缰野马，而伤害人类）。虽然很想正面迎接一场久违的“舌战”，但想到自己必须照顾仪态，而且如果女生们联合起来一起进行反击，我岂不是输得败北（遍体鳞伤的有可能是我）？结果，撑在肚子里的怒火好像《西游记》里炼丹炉的熊熊烈火，酷热地燃烧着。随着时间的过去，再强烈的野火也将会逐渐熄灭，因为已经学会如何去宽恕别人及看待事物。

最后，我只能借助部落格抒发自己的情感（有时候是怒气；有时候写一写情诗也不错）。写着写着，嘴角也不知不觉地扬起来，我知道自己不是一个典型的绅士，而是一个不完美、粗犷型的绅士。女生们是需要维护，还有值得尊重的，因为无论男女老少都持有自尊和七情六欲。

Our Songs

I have listened to these songs hundreds times

But no matter what, i can't get tired of them

Singing all the way from night till dawn

They are always by my side

If the world nowadays is too dangerous

Then only musics will be the safest

Bringing me deep into my dreams, like a lullaby

Letting the lyrics bring my dream comes true

It will be either happiness or sadness

My love will never change

Don't have to worry that time will take everything away

All kind of genres, hip-hop or rock n' roll

My feelings will never change

All my beautiful memories are kept in them

This kind of eternal love will never break

Listening to songs which are so real

Without boundaries and crossing eras

No need to ever say kiss goodbye

Every lines and syllables touch people's heart

Some couples meet and split up time to time

Yet we just keeping falling deeper in love

Knowing you has made my happiness

Your voice is soft and melodious

Can we not stop playing the songs?

And we will just keep singing

Let our feelings last forever...