Feeling . Actions . Restraint

Squeeze the heart tighter with heavy, rusty chains...Till it gonna bursts...

And you're feeling happy about it...Without knowing other's pain...

Sometimes when one's feeling and actions are put under control by another person,

that means it's totally pointless and meaningless already...

It's a torturous feeling that makes one to be in a confusion state of his or her own position...

The restraint feelings and actions which make one to feel like a caged bird...

The feeling of a normal person being locked up in a lunatic, bind-up and wore a mask like Dr. Hannibal...

The feeling of getting coiled up and squeezed by a giant albino python,

until you can't gasp for air...Alveoli in lungs feel like bursting...

The feeling is like waiting for Death to visit to the doorstep...One can only wait for it, but can't do anything about it...Only despair and darkness left...

The truth is feelings and actions can't be restraint...whether is LOVE or HATE...

When restraint...Both friendship and relationship are meaningless anymore...

偶像，你爱他们有多深？

30年后的你还是会记得他吗？

会为他喊Fantastic Baby吗？

偶像，这个词可以概括了不少国籍的组合与电视剧。踏入中学的学习生涯至今，虽然有点重听，但我都有一双永远都塞不住的耳朵。从早期的F4组合、飞轮海直到现在的Big Bang，都是光顾我耳朵的常客。上课之前、下课过后、空闲的时候，同学们口口声声地讨论各自的偶像有多帅，有多漂亮，接着就讨论电视剧情节。以个人立场，我应该是个“怪人”，因为老实说我的偶像不是娱乐界的人，更不曾真正地迷恋(我只抱着欣赏的目光)一个歌手或影星。词写得好让你泪水夺眶而出，歌唱得让你够high直喊Fantastic Baby，戏演得棒获了不少奖项，最多我也是给个称赞与支持。

对我而言，有偶像可以迷是件好事，毕竟总好过游手好闲，吃喝嫖赌；但偶像绝对不可以沉迷，让他们左右你的生活。也许你可能会梦见你的偶像帅哥，偶像辣妹对着你微笑、与你牵手或在雨中漫步共撑一把伞，但那其实是虚幻的。人，不管男女，原本都是视觉性的生物。只要是美、帅、让眼睛有视觉性的满足感的东西都会喜欢，都想占为己有。即时那种美，那种帅是日新月异的医学术造出来的，皆是美。就这样，很多人也开始不满意陪着自己多年的鼻子、嘴巴、眼睛、胸部等，都跑去进行整形手术了。就算偶像有多帅、有多美，你喊他们的名字喊到声音都沙哑了，他们回头一看只给你一个微笑，你就爽到心头里去了。难道这就是所谓的缺乏爱吗？偶像说爱你，其实并不是真正的爱你；因为他们其实比较爱你的钱。毕竟他们大部分的经济来源都来自粉丝们。

现今的很多人类可以说是现实，但是并不实际的。有很多年轻男女可以为了购买偶像的演唱会门票而省吃俭用，有些粉丝还因为不能接受自己的偶像藏毒而痛苦替他澄清。我想：偶像的妈妈都不会因自己的孩子犯罪坐牢，而像粉丝那样哭成一把鼻涕，一把眼泪吧？所谓：“金玉其外，败絮其中”。戏里、台上，他们也许是你可当神来膜拜的偶像，但粉丝们其实对偶像们背后的日常生活一知半解。毒品、滥交很大可能是他们的家常便饭，粉丝们也不知道。能看到的也是从报章或在网上流传的玉照。偶像并无大家想像中的完美，电视剧里的角色是依据剧本塑造出来的；但是对hardcore粉丝来说，即使偶像再不好，还是会让他们继续坐在自己心中的宝座里。

一些痴情的年轻男女还会把偶像们当成自己的未婚夫、未婚妻来看待。更夸张的是还把偶像当成自己未来的择偶标准。如果粉丝本身缺点一箩箩、在加上一副连照镜子，镜子都会破裂的容貌（但择偶条件高的人都是非常自恋的；承认自己丑的时候，也只是在帅哥美女前一时的卑微），我想：这粉丝也未免太他妈的不自量力了吧？继续挑吧，我等着你当十一叔（福建方言）还是老姑婆....回到现实与实际的世界才能让粉丝们找到真正的幸福与快乐。实际的一句：帅和漂亮的都未必会看上你（因为性取向与你有别）；富有的、家世在社会上有地位的，未必有时间陪着你；爱财如命的工作狂，未必有时间与你共处。早前在面子书看到有些粉丝上传某个偶像电视剧男星的照片，说他是完美的。就这样，又有多少个单纯的少女被“骗”了，被“荼毒”了。对，也许剧中他是个完美的情人，但是在日常生活里他只能给女粉丝们唱个《可惜不是你》。

我想：再过30年后，也没有粉丝会疯狂到与自己的孩子或孙子们抢电视遥控器，目睹自己偶像的风采吧？更何况，偶像们最不想发生的事：岁月不留人。就算有多发达的整形手术，有多强的肉毒素，他们终有一天还是会变老，会退休（退出演艺圈）。每个偶像的人生只不过是sixty second of fame。有些年轻的粉丝们工作、成家了，也只能心疼地向偶像们告别。我相信没有人会爱偶像多过爱自己的家人、情人与朋友......

[此文只是个人观点与立场，如有出言不逊，用词粗俗，向读者们致以万分道歉。]

We are friends? Yea, Just Shut Up!

The day we know each other, I call you: friend

Strong wind blows, like grasses we bend

We never know when our friendship will end

Our relationship is like pebbles and sand

When you need me, helps and offer I send

I can lend you anything, without a rent

Even if there's a crack, I will try to mend

Laughing together, all the time we spend

If you fall, I will be catching your hands...

Al Oul Vi Ee

Diamond is human's best friend? Because it never leave, never betray and never die?

Love is all about honest and straightforward

It doesn't matter you're a punk or a nerd

That pretty girl caused you to chase forward

Singing love song in the sky, like a bird

You start to behave stupid and absurd

It seems like everyone is willing to end up hurt

Walking passed to each other in the boulevard

Known strangers meet again, feeling awkward?

"I love you!" Can be a diamond or dirt...

Dee Ee Ay Tee Aitch

Sometimes they take people, and they don't say why; sometimes people leave and they never say goodbye; sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you; sometimes there are no next times; sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to heaven and sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop...

I saw a dead cat rotten at the roadside

Huge jellyfish stranded at the seaside

Lovelorn boy drinks a bottle of pesticide

Scars on wrists, proof of commit suicide

The man opposite died in homicide

Innocent eyes of the dead open wide

Bury or cremate? The family decide

Endless prayers for believers to recite

Heaven or Hell, you choose which side?

In The Bar

It's 1.13 a.m. now, and I can't really sleep, even though tomorrow I have to wake up early at 6.00 a.m. to follow my parents to pray at the Chinese Nine Emperors' Temple...So, what shall I do when I can't sleep? I write...
Enjoy, my fellow readers! ^^

Looking great with my silk, checkered tie

I am in the mood, a mug of beer I buy

Greeting the pretty bartender with a: "Hi!"

Long hair covered by brown colour dye

She hands me the beer, a wink on her eye

Oh, such a flawless smile, not hiding a lie

A smile I will remember, maybe  till I die...

* This is written based on own imagination, it's not a personal experience...XD

Outnumbered by October

Rainy season comes and goes fast, bringing memories back from the past...

I saw her looking great like a senorita

Sitting at the corner I'm sipping Margarita

She's staring at the hot-looking barista 

While he's brewing coffee from Malta

I'm trying to give you a wink

And you're giving me a blink

You make my heart sinks

But our hearts never link

Like a bee losing its hive

Some think that I don't have a life

Yea, you deserve a high five

Stabbing through my chest with knife

Standing under the October rain

I have missed the last and only train

Maybe you'll see me drunk beside the drain

Laughing insanely even though I'm in pain...

*Another ryhme for the rainy season of October*